Stories of a single mother raising four kids after her divorce while trying to reinvent herself, including dating again

FOMO or TOMO

Sitting across my girlfriend at Starbucks, I had an overwhelming feeling something was not quite right; a stirring deep within as if a mean girl were taunting, “I know something you don’t!”

As she discussed the latest about her family, I realized I’d become vacant.

“What’s wrong with me?” I wondered, finding myself distracted.

Fidgeting in my seat, the answer suddenly came – my phone hadn’t rung or beeped with the sound of a text the entire time we were together.

“Excuse me,” I said, as we took […]

It’s only a title, but it says it all

As my shaking hand scribbled away, changing my future forever, my attorney asked a question I hadn’t thought about, “Will you be taking back your maiden name?”

Stunned, I stared speechlessly. Up to that point, half my life I was known as Jackie Haugh. Who would I be if I weren’t her?

Soon, the tide rose around my eyes, and I sniffled, “Wouldn’t that be like getting an annulment? I have to think about it.”

Driving away, I stewed over the idea. I stewed so much I […]

Taking a Field Trip

 

With my Barbie lunch box filled with extra treats and my play clothes freshly pressed, I headed to school ready for a day of excitement. It wasn’t often St. Charles Grammar School allowed their student’s free dress. It was even rarer to go on a field trip.

“Now class,” Sister Margaret announced as we sat on the bus. “Remember, today is a day for learning. Not fooling around. I expect good behavior out of all of you.”

Despite the fact the outing would be more hours […]

Silly Me

When I was young, if someone labeled me stupid, my self-confidence would be ripped to shreds, leaving me feeling worthless and undesirable.  But this time, I deserved to be called out.

 

On June 28th, I went in for what was deemed a mere procedure on my knee: nothing major, nothing life threatening, just a little tear in the meniscus. Having already undergone two hip replacements, I was sure my recovery would be easy-peezy.

 

Fearless, I Ubered to Stanford Hospital for my 7:00 am surgery and woke […]

Little White Lies

As the tall silver fox from Sausalito chatted on, I found my breath taken away. It isn’t often I meet a handsome stranger at a Sharks ice hockey game, but as the fans began to scream; we knew it was time to go inside. Saying goodbye, we exchanged business cards with the promised to meet again.

 

For the next several days, we flirted via text and email.

 

“Finally someone normal,” I thought. “How fun to meet a cute guy organically and not on the Internet.” Feeling […]

Only 6 Days Left

Staring into the imploring eyes of the woman sitting across from me, I cringed. What she was asking was so beyond my comfort zone, I felt fear seep into every pore of my body.
Each January, I take a look back at what has been, what was good, what needed to be changed, and how to move forward. This year, I decided to receive a little astrological guidance from my sweet friend, Judith Royal, “Star Whisperer.”
Looking at my chart, she immediately began with, “This is […]